I used to say to myself that, “It’s your first year. It’s okay to make mistakes.” But I never believed it. I never actually heard myself.
Why? Because of pride.
I grew up in a classroom. My mom and dad are both teachers. I grew up surrounded by people affirming me of my career choice.
I put an expectation on myself to be this amazing teacher I thought myself to be. When I didn’t achieve that in the classroom, I started over correcting or feeling ashamed.
I was HARD on myself because I knew I made a mistake and it was true. I made plenty of mistakes and several of those had real consequences.
What’s funny is…I would always ask for feedback from my co-teacher, my boss, parents, and students. I did that because I wanted to correct all of my behavior so I could meet the expectation I set for myself.
But really what I was acting in was fear. Fear of the shame and condemnation that I wo…
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